Two Decades - Ten Lifetimes

Dallas, TX. Eighteen big, bold, good, bad, adventuresome years of it.

Southern California, two serene, gorgeous years, recovering from a nervous breakdown after the death of my beloved husband and layers of past losses never grieved. 

Wandering, without a home of my own for two long years; first in Austin, TX helping out my daughter with my grandson then in Indiana helping out my elderly Mom or was she helping me?

Daytona Beach, Florida came after that. Six months there. Disappointment then re-grouping at the live-in motel.

Finally, full circle and back to Dallas. 

And now, I'm writing a book to fill in between the lines. 

Dallas It Is

A six year old doesn't care why his Nana chooses to live in Southern California over Dallas where he lives. He only knows that he misses and needs his Nana close by so he can visit frequently (every chance he gets). We've been bonded so deeply from the beginning of his life. I came back to Dallas three months ago for a visit with him and I just knew it was where I was supposed to stay. For now I live in the Ramada Inn in a little two room suite and it's enough. My furniture is in storage here and my car's being shipped back from Cali. I've got my eye on an apartment around the corner from his and he can pop over often once I move there. I believe that sowing into his life with my presence and my encouragement wrapped in doting love is what that little boy needs and this Nana needs to do. So once again I'm back. Yeah, there are mosquitos and flies in Texas (I swear I never saw any in SoCal) the air conditioning life is normal seven months of the year (75 degrees Fahrenheit is the average temperature year round in San Diego), but nothing takes the place of that little boy's presence. I'll be staying in Dallas. Smile.

Questions I'm Asking Myself

It's been said that all human problems can be resolved by returning to your values, the basic virtues and values in which you believe at your core. And that, additionally, whenever we're unhappy for any period of time we should stop and ask ourselves, "What are my values? what is really important here?"
Now, add to those, this question, "What would I do, how would I change my life, if I won a million dollars cash, tax free, tomorrow?" 
The purpose of this question is to help you determine what you would do if you had all the money you needed. What would you do if you were free to choose your course of action? What would you do if you could do or have anything you wanted?

What would be the first thing I'd do?
What would be the second thing?
What would I get into or out of?
What would I buy or what financial situation in my life would I resolve?
*Sometimes these questions trigger a lightning bolt that enables one to see clearly what one really, really wants in life.

I'll miss you Southern California..til we meet again

If something's meant to happen, it will be.

"You have no idea the amazing things God has already stored up for you in your future." Joel Osteen 

I Loved Working Here

Downtown Dallas' Historic West End   

 I was Leasing Director in the early 90's after leaving the Dallas Cowboys. I was responsible for overseeing all the retail merchants and restaurants. I had some of the most fun working days ever there! 

We were just blocks from Sixth Floor Museum at Dealy Plaza.

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An Observation About Humans

An observation I have made:
People will let you down. Jesus NEVER does.
I will let you down, Jesus NEVER does.

Paint and Brushes

I like to paint pictures
brushing life onto canvas
mixing perfect colors,
boldly trying for beauty

I like to gift them
when they're finished,
though it's hard to feel
they're ever done
and a part of me
still resides in each one

1 Corinthians  - The Love Chapter

"Love does not take into account a wrong suffered." (13:5)

Rehearsing/replaying the offense suffered is unloving as it is

'taking into account a wrong suffered'."